sweet, falling apart

hope beyond the album cycle

hey y’all,

it has been a second since my last transmission on here. transmission being a forgiving word for what could more likely be perceived as / received as “bitchin, ranting, complaining”. i appreciate your patience and grace with me as i struggle to understand the world around me while using this new (to me) medium to express myself. each time i sit down to write one of these letters to you all i have a list next to me of all the upcoming news, stats, and action items related to my upcoming record that i feel pressure to push on you. i am grappling with ‘ album roll-out culture’ at the moment and feel like, more than the actual album details, wins and losses, i am inclined to share my Feelings about the whole thing.

now, to be clear, i am not on some massive label pushing me to do things i am uncomfortable with - nor am i selling a fuck load of records and have the pressure of a ton of (potential) money weighing on me. i am just trying to financially break-even with this one and this album is a hard one to do that with. musical risks, investments in photography, design, and all that. i just sometimes worry that the time, consideration, and effort that goes into a project like this makes you lose sight of the original goal and eventually distances you so far from what compelled you to make this music in the first place that you have nothing of substance left. idk. another thought i’ve been having is: when you release a record, it becomes your entire life. it is very all consuming (your mind, time, energy, etc.) YET it rarely matters to someone else even half as much as it does to you. this includes the other folks involved with the project. i do not think it should matter more to the others involved but it is a nice thing to remind yourself of.

all the above being said, i am working on so many non-album projects right now in addition to this roll-out for ‘sentiment’. i have a 12 month-long project through my Bandcamp Subscription where I create an all-originals mixtape each month between 20 and 40 minutes long. it is such a great way to keep the creative juices flowing and continue experimenting with new ways of making and presenting music. i just published the ‘march mixtape’ and it is my favorite piece of work that i’ve made in quite some time. if you don’t subscribe (no pressure) you areeee missing out on about 75 minutes of new and original music so far. i expect this number to hit over 300 minutes by the end of the year. that is like X10 the amount of music on my upcoming record. i make a good chunck of my monthly income from the Bandcamp subscription so if you ever feel like helping feed me, my dog, paying my cell phone bill, rent, etc - subscribe :) Also i just played Big Ears and also did an Ableton workshop and interviewed billy woods - all lit af.

this letter is a bit more ramble-y than originally intended so i will stop myself shortly. i just want to thank those who have stuck with me and my music through all the years and the changes. i want to thank my label, all past labels i have worked with, my agents and my manager for believing in and advocating for me.

also another reminder that i am going on tour very soon and would really appreciate it if all you heads who are gonna come out buy your tickets EARLY. we have tickets priced at various tiers for various income tiers. so no fear, come out but also give me that security of knowing the show will be full . lol

LINK TO TICKETS FOR USA / EU / UK

here is a short list of shit i am digging lately:

• Authenticity Is a Feeling by Jacob Wren

• The Lonely City by Olivia Laing

• Pacific Ocean Blue by Dennis Wilson

• Heavy Earth by M.A. Tiesenga

YOU CAN PRE-ORDER SENTIMENT HERE

YOU CAN SUBSCRIBE TO THE BANDCAMP HERE